Wednesday 6 April 2011

TELL ME I AM NO LONGER YOURS

What is this that you are making me feel?
What emptiness is this that has become part of me?
Was all this part of the deal?
What hollowness is this that is inside me?
You slowly but steadily push me away.
You gently but surely darken a bright day.
Yet whatever is inside you, you do not say.
Leaving me wondering if I'm meant to stay.
If whatever you once felt is no longer there.
If it is your life you no longer want to share .
If it means that you will lay your heart bare.
Then lay it so that mine does not wear.
If it is my hand you no longer want to hold on to,
If it is the little things that you no longer want to do,
If the love has dried as the sun does to dew,
Then tell me so my feelings do not stew.
If my sorrows have become too heavy for your shoulder,
If your warmth toward me is becoming colder,
Let me know then, so that my feelings stop to smoulder.
Tell me, for the questions are making my heart older.
If it is my lips you no longer want against yours,
If it is my heartbeat you need not alongside yours,
If it is my eyes you want not looking into yours,
Then, pray, do tell me I am not yours.

WALKING AWAY

Sometimes, walking away is easier than fighting to stay...
Sometimes bidding goodbye is easier than waiting for a new day...
Sometimes flying away be better than waiting for a clear sky...
Sometimes, it be best to walk away, when you know not what cause you fight for...
You no longer know what lies in store...
When you know not whether you still love...
When your hearts fit not like a glove...
When you find that indeed you stand alone...
The heart's around you turned to stone...
When you have watched the bridges burn...
When your life must take a new turn...
When you bow after your act...
Certain you have played your part...
If your heart is torn apart...
If all you feel is broken and hurt...
If your heart tells you must go, then it be wise to forge a new way.
Without turning back, walk away.

THERE WAS A TIME

There was a time when the dawn found your name on my lips...
When everything about you was at my fingertips...
There was a time when you were the reason I wore a smile...
When I longed to have you stay just a little while...
There was a time when you painted my dreams...
When everything was sunshine and little streams...
There was a time you were my all...
We were so high I never thought we would fall...
There was a time my world went round...
So freely, I never felt bound...
There was a time your words spoke to me...
It was the best that could be...
There was a time when you danced with me...
Before the music faded and I was left with me...
There was a time when everything was happiness and bliss...
Before the storm blew and all was amiss...
There was a time when life awakened anew...
But now it is sad and blue...
With memories and wishes of that time...
There was a time...

YOU AND I

We are standing in the rain you and I...
Showered gently by a weeping sky...
Looking each other in the eye...
The sorrows washing away...
The rain a cleansing for a new day...
You and I are standing in the rain...
Washing away all the pain...
Putting aside all the strain...
So our hearts be not tainted by such stain...
Of pain and strain with no gain...
We are standing in the rain you and me...
Hearts bared and wide as the deep blue sea...
All open and candid so we can see...
The tiny things that make us be...
We are in the rain standing still...
Hearts beat as one till our senses feel...
The warmth and passion that is the seal...
You put upon this heart you did steal...
A blazing fire no storm can kill...
We dance in the rain you and I.

STRANGER TO MY DREAMS

Captivating, exciting, breath-taking
I was yours for the taking...
And you took...
And my world you shook...
Gently, until you became a mighty quake...
But now? Now am wide awake.
Like a volcano, you threw me to the top...
Like a song, I never wanted it to stop...
Yet you were slow and gentle as a breeze...
I only wanted time to freeze...
You held me with your gaze...
You put me in a daze...
Running your fingers through my hair...
Made me say secrets I wouldn't dare...
Held me in your arms...
Warm and embracing, I had no qualms...
You came and lit a fire...
Then you became a stranger...
A stranger to my head...
A stranger to my heart...
A stranger to my dreams...
I see you not anymore...
You are different from before...
Now I'm confused all the more...
Perhaps you did not exist...
Indeed, a stranger to my dreams.

TOO GOOD TO BE

It can't be true...
But I open my eyes and see you.
It feels surreal...
Yet I cannot ignore what I feel.
The quiet thumping of my heart...
The lonely ache when we're apart...
Your presence tortures my very essence...
Lifted straight out of my dreams you were...
Stirring my heart way too far...
This can't be real...
But you're here in front of me.
The reason I smile secretly...
Indulging my senses recklessly...
Teasing my feelings torturously...
Rising and rising like tide in the sea...
I must come back to reality...
A reality I fear...
Afraid to hold you dear...
Afraid to let you in...
To embrace all that's within...
Afraid to dance it all away...
In case the music should fade and die...
Afraid that you may know what I really feel...
Because it's too good to be real.

PAINTBRUSH

My love is as a picture in a frame...
Each stroke of my brush a blazing flame...
We have painted, my brush and I...
Painted dreams and images as wide as the sky...
To some, we have bid goodbye...
But with some, they seem reluctant to try...
They seem afraid to let the paint dry...
I can only pause and wonder why...
Hmmm, but still we be together, my paintbrush and I...
What colour is this that frightens you so?...
What part of the picture makes you want to go?
Why do you deal us such a heavy blow?
I thought our picture would glow...
But now you ruin the flow...
And yet still we be together, my paintbrush and I...
My paintbrush be my heart...
My painting be my life's every part...
Black when we hurt...
White when it's a fresh start...
Fiery red for those we'll never part...
But be not afraid of my hues...
I will raise you when you are blue...
To you we shall be true...
Be not afraid that I shall walk away...
In search of a clearer day...
I am here to stay...
But let me paint my love as I know how...
Strong yet fragile...
Deep and Inviting...
Or maybe you should be afraid...
But either way, we be together, my paintbrush and I.

WHEN OUR LOVE BREATHED HER LAST

When our love breathed its last I thought I'd surely die...
When its heartbeat stopped with that last sigh...
Just when I thought we were ready to fly...
Far and wide as the clear blue sky...
Now I'm too numb to even cry...
Wondering why I even dared to try...
When our love breathed its last I thought I'd die...
When your back was turned and I wondered why...
You would dare to leave without goodbye...
When you had promised you would stay...
When you were always there to brighten my day...
But now you turn my world gray...
And I can't even pray...
Trying to keep the tears at bay...
Not surprised you went your way...
But I long for a new day...
To wash this pain away...
When our love breathed its last and you were gone...
When you left my heart bleeding and torn...
When you left my spirit battered and worn...
When you made it clear you had won...
I never thought I would move on
Or sing a new song...
But now?
I'm glad you're gone.

I DANCE IN THE RAIN

[Image from http://smritib.tumblr.com/post/71405622/dancing-in-the-rain]

If the year that was be a sky...
It began with making a part of me die...
Started off with breaking my heart...
A sudden storm that tore my world apart...
Wasn't that a lovely start?
There were times the sun would shine through...
And through them I knew who was true...
Through the drizzle ties became brittle...
And alas shone those that were fickle...
Ha! So much did the year hand to me...
I took it in stride as if it were simply afternoon tea... Ha!
When the rain relented the snow began to fall...
As if I hadn't played enough hard ball...
As though I needed a remainder that you didn't heed my call...
When the only thing coming was my fall.
And fall I did...
To happiness, farewell I did bid...
Strenous and painful was each deed...
The sky raining generously on each choking weed...
Killing bits of me to get its daily feed...
The sky poured generously and fed their greed...
The lightning struck, once, twice, thrice...
A cold merciless grip tighter than a vice...
A fresh slap to start the day...
A dense fog clouding the way...
A flood I couldn't keep at bay...
But one that was hell-bent to stay...
All I ever did was pray...
For a better, brighter day.
The year that was has come to an end...
The storm has shown me my true friend...
My brighter end...
I bid you farewell bad year...
By you I have shed many a tear...
By you I have lived a life of fear...
But in you too did things become clear...
Lover and user...
Sweet and bitter...
Dull and glitter...
Friend and foe...
To stay or to go...
Your rain was a lesson of pain...
But now, like a desert flower,
I dance in the rain.

DO NOT THINK ME A FOOL

Do not think me a fool
Do not think me a fool, even though I keep my cool
Do not think me a fool even if it is easy for you to do
When your heart is a well of venom and I still smile at you

Do not think me a fool.
Do not think we can play this game
Even if my heart appears tame
When you want to taste and to play
To go and to stay
Be sure I will go my way

Do not think I will forget you
My heart may not race when I see you
A lofty dream may have ended with you
Any feeling for you cold as the morning dew

But I will not forget
That my heart bled for you
That my soul was drained by you
That my thoughts were twisted by you
Blowing hot blowing cold
Pleasure and pain untold

Need I forgive you?
What wrong did you do?
You only walked away
Turned my world gray
You couldn't stay

But hey....
I'll still see another day

DANCING TO FOREVER

Slow music fills the still air...
Your senses absorbed the scent of my hair...
Minds wandered as far as they would dare...
Sure that this would always be there...
Certain it wasn't going anywhere...
Except to better and forever...
Unshakeable no matter the weather...
The magic that would withstand the rain...
The oasis in a desert of pain...
Swaying gently to the sound of the song...
Sure that nothing could go wrong...
Sure that this was strong...
Dancing slowly to the beat...
Until it started to fade...
Sinking slowly like the sun in the horizon...
Fading and fazing and no longer crimson...
You're fumbling and nudging and stumbling...
And when I look into your eyes...
It hits me...
We were dancing to forever...
But you were looking over my shoulder.

YOUR WHISPER

Don't pull me closer...
Don't hold me tighter...
Don't turn the music down...
Lest I drown...
Deeper into your embrace...
In your hands you hold my face...
With your eyes you hold my gaze...
With your words you spin me to a daze...
Sweet and gentle is your whisper...
Slowly drawing me deeper...
Pulling my walls lower...
Slowly until I let you in...
To taste what lyeth within...
Giving you my all with no chains...
Giving you my all forgetting past pains...
I let you see my dreams...
You let me paint you my dreams...
You let me hold your heart in mine...
You made me give you that bit of me...
That makes my heart beat...
Your careless whispers that made me believe...
In mountains and sunsets and peace...
In rainbows and meadows and dreams...
NOW? Your whispers are but a shadow...
Distant memories that make my mind sore.

SOMETHING GOOD IN EVERYTHING

There's something good in every situation
A little story deserving a continuation
There's a little hope in every storm...
That little spark that keeps the heart warm...
There's always some sunshine after the rain...
That melts away the strains and pain...
There's a smile in every sorrow...
That tells you of a better tomorrow...
There's a little strength in every breaking...
That stands firm and sets you healing...
There's a song amidst the noice...
The peace that becomes your guiding voice...
There's an island even in the rough sea...
You only need open your eyes and you'll see...
There's a beauty to every ugliness...
A strength to every weariness...
A summer to every winter...
A log to every splinter...
To everything, there's always a good, a strength, a beauty...
Open your eyes...

DO NOT...

Do not come to me with sweetness and charm and all the nice you can be...
Do not look at me, and paint meadows and streams and the sweetest dreams...
Do not think of me, and anchor your heart and think you will not hurt...
Do not sing to me, when the music still clouds my thought and tempers my soul...
Do not give me your hand, because my heart is held by a single strand...
Take not my sanity away...While you can, pull away..
Let me heal and be still...Let me breathe and dream again...
Do not lead me to sink in seas dark and blue...
Do not lead me to fly then fall...
Do not lead me out and not heed my call...
Do not hold your hand out to me...
Because I will not take it...
For now do not.

LOVE AND HATE

There's a thin line between love and hate
Between a happy and state...
The one that keeps you high in the sky in one moment...
And flings you to the hard, cruel ground the next one...
In a heartbeat moving from dancing in the rain and kissing beneath the stars...
From knowing you will never part...
To swimming and drowning and choking in hurt...
From painting dreams and winding streams...
To shattered dreams and silent screams...
From finishing his sentences and reading minds...
To anger and repulsion heavy as evening tides...
From speaking your heart with nothing but truth...
From holding another's heart with feelings so true...
To making the very same heart blue...
From stolen hugs in the middle of the day...
To wishing you never stray upon my way...
From being the pot of gold at the rainbow's end...
To bringing tears with no end...
From love to hatred turned...
When the goodness within gets burned...
Or the warmth that once was just no longer is...
Incapable of bringing what was once bliss...
When life draws two people away...
When it makes no sense for them to stay...
Though they thought they'd remain forever that way...
Together every waking day...
But love be not blind...
Only choosing what to see...
Choosing what to be...
The thin line that turns everything fine into one large land mine...
Love and hate...
The thin, blurred line

Friday 1 April 2011

Perfect Woman

Your perfect woman...
And what is she to your eyes?
One who is not shrouded in lies...
Or one who beckons you with her smoky eyes?
Beckons you and only you?
But how can that be true...
When in a day she sees much more than you?
Your perfect woman...
Does she have the perfect smile...
And does she for you go the extra mile...
And keep the excitement pounding in your heart for a while?
Your perfect woman, does she turn your insides out with thoughts of what she can do...
Twist and turn your senses till you have nothing left to do...
But surrender...to your perfect woman?
And this woman, this perfect woman, is she not what you always DREAM about?
WISH for...in the corridors of your secret fantacies...
Are you not so sure that everyone before her was wrong for you,
And that this, this perfect woman will never make your day blue?
That everything she does will be for you?
That she is the epitome of all that is good and true...
That she is known to none but you...
Her heart is owned only by you...
That her warmth comforts you...
That everything about her is all for you and about you?
But really, in moulding the perfect woman,
Where are you?
Wait, you do not care do you?
After all she is perfect, is she not?

YOU MAKE ME CRY


[image from http://chessaleeinlondon.files.wordpress.com/2008/09/tears1.jpg]  

You make me cry
When you look into my eyes and see right through...
To the heart that beats and weeps only for you...
When you pry and untie the strings that hold it in place...
And in the same gentle hands hold my face...
Look into my eyes and fill my senses like darkness in night skies...
When you kiss my lips and seal inside this fragile heart...
The dream that you will never cause me hurt...
When you stitch together the forgotten memories of a happy time...
When you rouse emotion like the sea with tide...
When with my feelings you dance and swirl...
When with my dreams you waltz and twirl...
When all you pledge is perfection and love...
Happiness stretching to forever like the sky above...
When you tear the walls of my defenses...
When you are firmly within my senses...
When everything is heavy and fast and I cannot breathe...
When you make me give my heart to you, my all to you,
When it is true that I love you...
You make me cry

WHEN I BURNT THE BRIDGE


[image from http://art4linux.org/system/files/bridge+II-1600x1200.jpg]

When I burnt that bridge to you...
It was because I wanted to forget you...
Forget everything to do with you...
Because after all, it was about you.
When I burnt that bridge that led to you...
I wanted the memory of you to burn...
I wanted life to take a fresh turn...
I wanted you to know I was done.
When I burnt the bridge between us...
It was because you sunk me to a low I would never have reached on my own...
It was because you made me reap the pain you had sown...
You took away chunks and pieces of a heart that was never your own...
You repulse me.
Even the mention of your name makes me fan the flame...
So that this bridge may soon turn to ash before our eyes...
So that we will turn our backs at each other with no goodbyes...
You have made me cry and now I say goodbye...
I burn this bridge and await a new day...

SHOULD I

           [image from http://catsandclothes.blogspot.com/2011/01/blog-post.html]


Should I close my eyes and lose myself to the mellow of your voice?
Should I close my eyes and sway to the slow sure rhythm your words create in my heart?

Should I give you that heart? Or perhaps keep wondering, whether there's more to that quiet charm...
Whether there's more to your words than just words...
Or shall we be one, 
Yet two different entities...
Two personas...
Two grains of dust in the whirlwind that is life...
I am fragile as the pale petal on a rose flower...
Yet strong as diamond in a fire...
I wonder, should I dance to your music...
Should I be blown away by this...
This aura you create?